Reiry writes

All I do is cry. Why would anybody want to spend time with me?

You can't ... you can't leave me when I'm like this. You can't ...

I know my period's coming when I started having problems with sleep approx ~6 days ago. Maybe more? I don't remember. I'd sleep late and wake early. Then I started getting easily irritated, or easily emotional. I feel nervous. Not forgetting the random thoughts of wanting to hurt myself. There's also the sudden disinterest in things. They don't persist, but they do happen. Period came two days ago, I've been sleeping alot on the 2nd day due to the exhaustive nature of the cramps. but on the 2nd night to the 3rd, I wasn't able to sleep for abit and I woke up early on the 3rd day, today.

Last night I returned home alone. There's no choice, childo is packed full this week, he can't come back with me. and me, I need to tend to my hamsters at least. Woman came in asking me to sign a form for my sister's bursary application. So I took the chance to ask her for permission to withdraw my remaining money from our joint bank account. She freaked out, as always. She's money-grubbing after all. She started making it about the job tried to insult me by equating me to my dad. Note: This is only the 2nd month I'm jobless. Same pattern as last time, she's gonna start heavy assault at 2 month's mark. She said I only cared about spending time with Kelvin. Bitch, without Kelvin, your daughter would already have been dead. Says I'm freeloading off her. If anything, she did not support me monetarily in any way. All I did was use her electricity and water, which shouldn't be much (since I'm not around most of the time). Not to men...

Why buy so many stuff, you useless piece of shit. You're gonna die anyway, stop spending money. You should save the money to return to people you've been indebted to. I can never return it all ...

In life, I risk falling prey in my mother's presence. Please prevent me from falling prey to her antics in death.